What’s Normal…really?
I’ve been doing a lot of thinking lately…and after a late night talk with my 17 year old son, it made me decide to write this blog! Everywhere we turn, people stare…you hear them make their comments…they cross the street just so they won’t walk past us. My son will be 18 shortly, he has tattoos…long hair…and the other night, he wanted to put some color in his hair. He picked out a bold shade of purple – we’re adding some red and black…and people judge that. It seems that appearance is at the fore-front of everyone’s mind. There must be a lack of ability to get to know someone past what’s physically in front of you. Makes me sick…society is so one-sided!
The way my son looks is NOT a signature of his personality…it’s his statement. If people would give him the time of day, they would see that. My son became a teenage father…and he is with his son almost every day. He works full-time, is going for his GED and is also starting his own movie production company. For a teenage boy to step up to the plate to raise his child, to seek full custody of him…that says something. Society doesn’t see that…because society doesn’t care. At least my son has common sense…and he has morals. I raised him to be the type of man to never back down and give in – stand up and do what he knows is right. He makes me proud…multi-colored hair and all…and he’s more of a man than most men out there.
It’s not necessary to conform to what society deems as normal…after all, who can say what normal is! There is only one that has the right…the power…to judge another. When my son stands in front of God – the color of his hair will not be the issue…the tattoos will not be seen…what shall be judged is the life he lived. Let me assure you – my son lives a good life…he should be the inspiration to others who choose to be different. I say go for it…be different…make a statement…that is what leads to innovation! After all, if he doesn’t like the purple in his hair – he can shave his head…it’s only hair!
An UN-traditional Easter
I’m sure most of you spent Easter Sunday with your families…eating ham…sharing baskets. As for me, my children are older and we have no local family. Since none of us are big candy eaters…and we hate ham…it was kind of just like any other day. My oldest son had to work – my youngest son is finally home (and on house arrest) – so, we went through the drive-thru. Today was a lazy day…we watched movies! Of course, I cleaned my living room…and my kids helped…but other than that – our excitement was pretty non-existent.
Now that I’m grandma…next year, I must prepare for Easter! But, as for this year…it was my much needed day of rest!
I Should be Sleeping…
…BUT I’M NOT…
Well, it’s been one of those days! I’ve come to realize that I should have chosen a different name for the title of my previous blog. Ever hear of the cycle…what comes around goes around…or the idea of what you say actually is enough to jinx you. Hhhhmmmm…I should have thought about that!
Let’s see…things surely got worse! The night I posted that blog, I couldn’t sleep. So, at 4 am I drove to the store for some coffee and chips. On the way home, my car broke down! Hahahaha…NOT FUNNY! But if I laugh, I may not cry. A friend of mine (someone I wish was more than a friend) came over the next night to look at it. Apparently, it’s my heater core…thank god winter is over! I’m just going to re-route my wires and be done with it – until summer. I’ll eventually get it fixed.
To add to it, I still haven’t talked to my son! It’s been over 3 weeks. That’s just outright bullshit if you ask me…he’s supposed to be able to call me everyday – why aren’t they letting him! On a good note, my grandson showed up today…one day early. When he’s here, no matter what’s going wrong, he always makes me smile – maybe cuz he’s only 3 months old!
Doesn't he make you smile too!
He is my son’s pride and joy…and he’s such a great dad too! It makes me so proud just to realize that I did a good job raising him. Being a single mom, I always wondered if I was doing the right things…teaching them enough morals. This right here proves it…I couldn’t be happier!
Back to the bad part of my week…I was right! I’m officially losing my house – and am having one hell of a time finding another one…damn economy! But, as usual life shall go on…and I know we’ll be okay…I hope…
Enough rambling for now…I shall return tomorrow!
Can Things Get Any Worse…
…NOPE…I highly doubt it! It seems that once you start to get ahead, something comes along to knock you back down. When does it end…will it ever end…what could possibly be next!
I’m sure everyone read the blog about my son and his little mishap with the law…if you didn’t scroll on down and read it! Otherwise, here’s an added bonus to that drawn out saga. Had my child support hearing this morning…in layman’s terms…I’m F#%&ing screwed. Yep, you guessed it – the nailed me! Here’s what I don’t get…my son still doesn’t have any charges, they only want to keep him so he can see what will happen if he does get into any more trouble. Their defense about it all is…what IF there would have been charges for your mistake…HUH? Since when do we put kids in detention centers based on what ifs…holy hell…
If that was the case, I think almost every teenage boy would be locked up…indefinitely! Anyway…back to the topic at hand. They got me for support and said that since the state has custody of him, it’s my financial obligation to pay the state back. Guess the domestic relations employees (and the trainees) can sit comfortably secure in their jobs…while I’m on the verge of losing my house! When I asked them how I’m supposed to keep my house – so my son has a home to come to in a month – they told me that they DO NOT take living expenses into consideration…that I choose to live where I do and it’s not their problem….that someone has to pay the state back for him being there. Bottom line…HE SHOULDN’T BE THERE!
In my opinion, we can blame the entire US government for the state this economy is in…including how it feeds into making sure they still have money in their pockets. What about all of us average citizens that can barely make ends meet…what about the $400 electric bill I got last month (courtesy of the increase in electric rates)…when will the government make sure that every citizen is taken care of. I make too much for any kind of help…not having any luck finding a second job…and now the state wants most of what I make! I’m just dumbfounded…
I’ve been trying to keep myself busy with writing…and handling my movie script stuff…and more or less just trying to be careful about what I say. But, now I’ve had enough…this is just ridiculous. Seems America is NOT the land of the free…it’s not a place where government cares about citizens…it sure as hell isn’t a democracy…
It’s becoming a “police state” where government figures decide on a case by case basis what they feel like doing…they make up the rules as they go along, without thinking of anyone but themselves. The only question I have for them…who the hell is going to take care of my other son while you’re bleeding me dry for imprisoning my 15 year old son that doesn’t have any charges…tell me that!
Guess I’m off to see if anything else can possibly ruin my day…
Just cross your fingers that I don’t lose my house over this…because if I do, the state will blame me for that…even though they won’t do anything to help! As usual…life must go on…
The Suicidal Trend
It’s time for society to pay attention…help kids cope. Maybe then we can save a few lives!
See more at http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/1536383/the_suicidal_trend.html
A Single Rose
This is a suspense filled short story. It depicts a woman’s emotional demise as she is being stalked. The only security she has in this new town is her new friend. A man named David.
See more at http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/1526347/a_single_rose.html
The Better Joker – Jack or Heath?
An opinion article based off the Joker character. It tells the way in which both actors portrayed that same character.
See more at http://www.associatedcontent.com/article/1526411/the_better_joker_jack_or_heath.html
Justice System Confusion…
I know that I need to be careful what I say here – personally, I could care less! I’ve hit my breaking point…I’ve had enough…don’t think my brain can take any more of this confusion.
To parents in Pennsylvania…be warned…be VERY warned! It’s been obvious over the years that as parents, the rights to discipline our children have been stripped away from us. Seems the state thinks they know how to raise our children better than we do – I THINK NOT! Anyways…to the point…society has gone down hill drastically – it sucks. Did you ever stop to ask yourselves why that is. I’m not here to downplay child abuse in any way…I would never do that…after all, my own daughter almost died at the hands of an abuser! To save her life, she was adopted by a wonderful family…I know she’s taken care of…I know she’s safe. The point I’m trying to make is simple – what about all the claims of abuse that are just normal discipline? In the eyes of the government here, there’s no difference. I’m telling you different…there is a difference! The lack of discipline towards the younger generation is leaving us in a society that doesn’t care…that doesn’t respect…a society of creeps!
Now I’m stuck in some type of third dimension…a black hole…being sucked into the world of the unkown. In Pennsylvania, juveniles are not given the same civil rights as adults. I’m telling you this because it’s what I’m living with right now…and it’s driving me over the edge. I don’t understand it…no matter how hard I try. I’ll simplify this a little for you.
My 15 year old son got in trouble for playing with fireworks last October. He was with a friend and it was the day before McCain was coming to town. That in itself should tell you how this all got blown out of proportion! They were throwing all kinds of charges at these boys…2 misdemeanors and a felony. I spent weeks on the phone trying to get my son a public defender (with no luck), everyone kept telling me that I would get information in the mail…nothing ever came. In January, I got a phone call from the juvenile probation office to set up an intake appointment for my son. That’s all fine and great…but when was something coming to me in writing?!? Finally, at the end of January, I got a subpoena for a hearing on February 6th regarding his little fireworks escapade. It about time – at least I have a date!
There was no time to get him a lawyer…that’s okay…he lucked out and ended up with a pretty good one. Here’s the thing, we never got to meet with this lawyer, my son didn’t even know who he was until an hour before the hearing. But, he’s a good lawyer…that’s not my issue…my problem is a lot bigger than that! If you’re a little curious, you should be…by the time you’re done reading this, you should be outraged. If this could happen to my son…it could happen to yours as well…and that’s a scary thought!
Remember that date…February 6th…WELL here it goes! My son is more of a follower. He was manipulated by a kid to sell certain pills and give him all of the money. This was an agreement for him to consider having my son as a friend. Without thinking, my kid decided to go on ahead and do this thing…I’m just dumbfounded by that! On February 4th, he was caught with a little bottle of pills at school…he was expelled…he was taken to juvenile detention. Here’s where the story takes a twist…read on…
When we were sitting in the school, with the police officer and his probation officer, my son admitted everything. He didn’t sell any of the pills (or give any away) because he “chickened out”…he didn’t want anyone to get hurt and he decided to just throw them away after school. It never got that far…he got caught with them. I’m very glad that his good judgement kicked back in and he didn’t distribute any of them…even though I’m pissed that he even agreed to do something this dumb! He gave the police officer and his probation officer so much information that afternoon…he saved a girl’s life (she wanted the pills because she was sick of everything)…he handed over a drug dealer. I know it took a lot for him to give up all of that information…but he did it…he knew it was the right thing to do. This drug dealer was also on probation with the same Probation Officer.
After the meeting, they handcuffed him and took him away for violating his probation. Did you pick up on anything yet…I sure hope you did! The hearing on February 6th was the hearing that would have placed him on probation…it would have addressed the issues from October…February 4th he was taken into custody for violating probation when he wasn’t even on it yet! They have had my son ever since…
Now, the drug dealer that he turned in was also taken into custody that night (courtesy of the information my son gave up). That kid was out of detention a week later…now he’s after my kid…obviously! Now…the hearing on February 6th ended up with all of those charges being dropped. The only thing that is with my son is one misdemeanor disorderly conduct charge. For the incident February 4th…there are no charges…NO CHARGES AT ALL! They realized that they received valuable information from my son (willingly) and they were grateful for his honesty. Did you get my point yet…please tell me you did…
They are going to have my son for about 3 months total for violating probation (which he wasn’t even on yet)…and for one misdemeanor of playing with fireworks…oh and here’s the kicker…
Since the state decided he’s some bad ass criminal…they are suing me for child support! My hearing is next week and I’m hoping that I have the ability to remain calm…even though I doubt I will…
Society is screwed up majorly…the justice system is feeding into it…and juveniles in Pennsylvania apparently aren’t offered the same civil rights as adults! Anyone else see a problem with that….
Getting Ready for Monday…
Well…time is moving on…let the stress begin! So far tonight, I’ve folded 7 loads of laundry…played with my dog…thought about doing the dishes. This is all in my ventures of preparing for Monday night. I’m cleaning now just to clean again when my company leaves.
It’s what we’ll refer to as “Movie Script Monday”…and it’s going to be our first one! With the script about 3/4 of the way done, almost everyone involved is going to be coming over. I’ll have the video camera in my hands…prepared for some funny moments. This is going to be great…stressful…but great!
The reason it’s going to be stressful is simply this – I don’t like to have people at my house…EVER! It’s my own little domain where I can do as I wish and I love my privacy. The little bit of privacy I have left will be gone Monday night though. My house will be full…there will be food…and a lot of fun. It’s all going to be worth it in the end though…when we bring you the final product.
Prepare yourselves for a full-length feature film…lots of gore and blood…lots of screaming and drinking…entertainment for the ages! I wish I could tell you what it’s going to be called. I can’t – that’s part of the suspense of it all. All you can know is that it’s a serial killer script…based in the mountains…and it’s to die for!
I’ll keep you updated on the progress…and maybe even throw some pictures on here after Monday night! Wish us luck…we’ll need it…
